Sunday, August 30, 2009

Service

I've had what feels like another major leap forward in my recovery a few days ago, and at first, it left me feeling that what I was doing with this blog was just another form of talking too much, so I had decided to shut it down and delete it.

Today, while out in my garden, I was thinking about this, and asking for guidance, because apart from a momentary relief immediately after I made the first decision, I wasn't feeling like I'd made the right choice. On the contrary, it was niggling away at me, feeling almost like a service obligation I'd taken on, and was now trying to weasel out of.

I decided to go with "When in doubt, don't!" for the time being, and re-evaluate this periodically. I know that I have some recovery blogs which are very meaningful for me to read, and I keep them on my Favourites List, and read them every morning for my 12-Step input to start my day. Perhaps in time I will serve that same function for someone else. That needs to be enough.

I'm trying to be more aware of the messages I get from my Higher Power; they don't always arrive with great fanfare - often, they are spoken in a "still, small voice."

Hope you all had the glorious weather we did this weekend - at one point I went out to find both dogs belly-up under the mock orange bush, snoring a duet.

4 comments:

  1. A brief comment. Keep posting. :)

    PG

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  2. You can never fully know how much you have touched a person. But please understand that your posts have been a lifeline to me daily as I uncover the effects of alcohol in my life and recover through Alanon. Thank you so much for your insight, guidance and deep lessons about the program.

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  3. Your blog has been an inspiration to me and helps me understand more fully how the program works, how I work with the program. I think you write well and that your thoughts are clear and concise. I know your viewpoint helps uncomplicate things for me. I hope you'll keep on bloggin'

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  4. I hope that you will keep the blog and keep posting. My sponsor told me that what I write is service work. And that it helps others. This is like a journal for me. All the recovery blogs help. Keep on doing what you are doing.

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