Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Deja Vu All Over Again

I'm going in next Tuesday for another day surgery. Ugh. I have a lump which the radiologist considers to be an abscess, and the oncologist isn't sure what it is. Either way, abscess or otherwise, it either has to be biopsied, or if it is an abscess, drained. So I'm going back to the hospital again. I'm deeply grateful that it's going to be day surgery, and I can go home afterwards.

I'm struggling a bit with this. I've reached a limit of some sort, and feel like I've had enough, already. I don't want to go to the hospital again, I was just there two weeks ago getting a chemo port put into my chest.

But the sun is shining today, and I've got plenty of blessings for which to be grateful, so I'm trying to shut out the whining voice in my head, ask my Higher Power for help, keep calm, and carry on.


  1. I (think) I understand what you feel when you say you've reached some kind of limit with this. I, too, am going through some scary struggles that have going on for longer than I sometimes think I can endure. I hope it's okay for me to suggest that we who struggle against our physical and emotional limits, do so in solidarity. That is to say, lets all be thinking and praying for each other. Take care Ken

  2. PS. I liked you post on gratitude. I've read it several times and it's been very helpful. I'm grateful to you for writing it. Ken

  3. I am trying to 'Let Go and Let God 'more and more to help me get through difficult days. I have trouble giving my life and my will over but will keep practicing. But we are only human and of course we will get fed up from time to time. I hope you find some more acceptance and serenity, you have worked your programme so brilliantly.

  4. Asking my HP for help today -- thank you for your inspiring words