Tuesday, April 22, 2014

A Better Attitude.

Sorry no posts for so long, I was reeling from the news about the cancer having returned. But now, a couple of weeks further on, my mood has settled more into acceptance and gratitude for all of the love in my life: friends, family, and my wonderful Robert.

One of the women in a group I attend weekly, came up to me before the last meeting, gave me her phone number and address, told me that she had been through one aspect of the surgery I'm facing, and would happily be there for me as support and encouragement. I called her a few days later, and she was encouraging and helpful. Her surgery was due to other reasons, not cancer, but it was the same sort of thing, and she is willing to come to my place and help me when I'm newly home from hospital, and to be a support by phone at any time. I'm supposed to call her this weekend, and go over to her place for tea and some more talking.

I felt far less frightened after speaking with her; she helped me to feel that I can get through the surgery and recover, although it's life-changing and invasive. I have no choice, if I want to live for any time at all, I have to get it done.

Tomorrow I go for a CT scan in the morning, in an effort to see if the cancer has metastasized to my other organs. If it has, I will be lucky to live for another couple of years, if it has not, who knows?

My brother is flying out from New York on the 2nd, and going home on the 4th. We were estranged for many years, and haven't seen each other for almost 30 years, so I am giddily excited at the idea of having even that short space of time to visit with him.

When I live in the moment, life is good.


  1. I hope that you will let us know how you are doing. I am sending positive thoughts to you and hoping for the best.

  2. When I read this I knew there was nothing appropriate to say. I do think is amazing under the circumstances that you can be grateful and excited about seeing your brother again. You are obviously a strong person. I will send healing thoughts in your direction.

  3. I am so glad you are feeling positive today in the moment, and I think its amazing you can still write such a calm, inspirational message. I'll keep praying for you, have faith.

  4. So glad to hear that you are feeling some encouragement. I'm thankful there is someone willing to come along beside you and offer you some help after going through a similar experience. And it's a sweet thing to hear that you will see your brother after all this time. Hope and pray all works out well.

  5. I am sending kind thoughts to you. You were and have been a great source of encouragement to me in early recovery over the net waves, I am impressed by your ability to pull the program into all aspects of you life.